these past few days.. was a lot of fun. but the sadness and hurt and the feeling of rejection hit me. wow ang emo. natututo na ako ha.

i hate it when people look through my stuff without informing me. i felt that feeling just last week. someone was going through my stuff and then she saw what she was looking for. and then she shouted out loud "P***** I**! bakit di nya ginawa!" and she didn't know i was just there in the classroom when it happened. she was quite shocked when she saw me and she was blabbering on why i didn't do the script and stuff. so i was busy doing the research papers. and then she blabbered again on why didn't i tell her why i can't do it and other stuff. so i just let it pass. i won't let her take over my emotions and make me cry and stuff. but i am such a crybaby. i just can't help it. and so it came to a point that i wanted to quit being a leader. i didn't want this anyway. but still, i controlled my crying and continued through the day. blah for her. (if ever someone from my class is reading this, i'm just sharing what i felt when she did that to me.) and yeah, wala palang magbabasa nito from my class. nosebleed kasi diba?:]

moving on.. the rest of the days weren't that easy for me. because i am feeling so tired. being confronted by my teacher on how my performances were degrading, i never thought of that until she said it funnily. :)) but i realized that, really, it was degrading. i was losing my interest in school. i don't know what the hell is happening to me, but i know its something bad. and i have to figure it out sooner or later. x_x

the fun part, i want to post it in a new entry. to make things short. is this short? :))